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it gotta be planned, my next theorical holidays are in the late october and the beginning of november but logistic is tough because I live 2.30h far from Rome and other 2.30h far from Florence, actually in the middle lol and Venice is pretty far I guess 6h by train the last time or something, maybe even more and my house is small but eventually we can manage to put a bed somehow in my room.
these huge cities need and deserve some days to stay because if you just come and stay for few hourse you'll catch 1% of the art and magnificent at all.
it needs to be planned definitely, I think a trip in Italy from such a different context such yours is fucking amazing to live as the other way around obviously

ooo really ?? that's amazing! you truly have to visit Italy, there are too many cities to see. let's plan to see at leat Rome - Florence - Venice and me, then you can definitely come back in the US with a huge and grand smile ^o^

I don't have plan right now, I'd like tro go away but got none at the moment available for a trip and I don't like to visit a place or travel alone. then come here in italy and let's see what happen XD

lol appreciated, yes you can beat him and definitely let's get naughty together XD

I want to be but I'm not acting like that yet. consider that I discovered the guy I was attending, having naked pics of himself in a gay website to shag. dude, this kind of things hurt and I can't tell you how disappointed I am right now, I mean after aaaaaaaaall I gave to this moron, I gotta take even this ?! people are really miserable. for that and many other reasons I told him straight that I can't afford to see him anymore and forverer.
and then you see the unluky coincidences, I catch him by car right after work.
it is all so wrong.
anyway, officially I'm on holiday and hope sooo much to have a rest in these days trying to not think to that person ò.ò but it's not gonna be simple

very often it's all about priorities and many times I put other's above mine and this, for how noble can be, it's basically wrong, a little bit of selfishness it's ok in the end.
I still put other's happyness at first place so this is surely good for them, but you know everybody wants to be happy I guess and I want it too

I hope so, yesterday night I told to the guy I can't go on this way.
I can't give anymore, it's an entire year I helped him so much and I deserve to be fine.
awful night of course and still going in the day -.-

according to the schedule I'd have a week off from this saturday

my mood is floating up and down these days. I'd like to go away for the w-e but gotta work saturday morning and the too many thoughts are burning my will to feel good, you know

I don't feel completely confortable with this decision, I can pretend to forgive or maybe forgive for real but you know, when something is broken rarely returns as it was so I think I'll let fade away the thing handling the bad feeling that causes