Aijou wasn't sure why Akira seemed so...tormented when he wanted to go. It wasn't like he had a real reason to stay did it? He was only in the way. Eating his food...taking his bed. It wasn't right for him to do this. AT some point Akira would ask for a payment....and it would be given no matter what...that's how it always ended didn't it? Them making a move....He couldn't pay this fellow back for all that had happened, his food, the shower and bed...He just...he didn't want to be a bother...maybe he just didn't want to watch Akira become like all the other guys, wanted him to stay like this in his eyes..kind man.

Glancing down, Aijou bit onto his lower lip. "I-...its not that I don't want to stay here. You've been very kind...its just...I dont have anything to pay you back with..you having to waste food on me...even your bed had been taken over...you must have had a hard night on the couch." he said feeling bad for that.

Akira simply couldn't fight the urge to hold Aijou in his arms. He rushed to where the boy was, and gave him a great big hug.

"Don't you ever say that about yourself, Aijou" the man whispered, holding back his tears, so as not to make a fool of himself. "You're not a waste, you're a good and intelligent young man. And you don't owe me anything. Not one thing! I promise you, no one is going to hurt you, as long as your in my house. So, please, don't go back on the streets. You'll find nothing there, but hardships, hunger, pain, and misery..."

Aijou had been taken off guard when he was suddenly hugged, his body tensing as he stood there, confused as to what he was to do now. He'd never really been hugged out of no where...

When Akira began to go on about not owing, and something else about staying and not going back out into the darkness, Aijou couldn't help but feel slightly sad. "I...Okay.." he said in a smaller voice. "I'll stay here..b..but only if its okay with you." he said giving a small nod, "c..can you let me go now?" he asked after a while...it was awkward being hugged by someone so...kind.

( o.o i have the hicc-ups )

"Of... of course..." Akira released the boy from his warm embrace, taking a few steps back, to give him some breathing space. He was happy that Aijou had agreed to remain. "I'm totally okay with you being here. In fact, I'd like you to live with me from now on, that is, if there's no one left for you to go to..."

Aijou had been taken off guard with what the other was saying. "..To..live here?" he asked confused, He wasn't completely sure what the other had in mind. "I'd be in your bed for that time...wouldn't you get tired of the couch?" he asked. "And no...I don't have anyone..." he said glancing down. "The only ones who've wanted me...tossed me out because i did...didn't want to do...things" he said feeling nervous.

Akira wanted to reassure him that he wouldn't mind him using his bed, when the boy spoke of those who'd thrown him away, because he'd refused to do something. What that something was, Aijou didn't say, but by the tone of his voice, Akira realised it had to be something bad.
"Who chased you away? Who did this, Aijou? And what did they try to make you do?"

Aijou shook his head as he took a step back. "No no, forget it. I'm sorry I said anything" he said as he wove his hands back and forth. "I....I'll be in the room." he said turning around to head back. If he wasn't able to take back what he said, he could at the very least, hide away.

"Aijou, please come back" Akira tried to stop him, by grabbing his left arm. "If someone hurt you, or tried to do bad things to you, then I have to know about it. It's the only way to make sure they pay for the way in which they treated you. So, I'm begging you to trust me, and tell me the truth..."

Aijou jumped when his arm was grabbed, tugging it away as he spun around, slowly backing away with a look of fear in his eyes. "I...I..." he began, he didn't know what to say....It was one thing to hug him but to grab at him? He was completely unsure as to how to react now...his alarmed mind woke the others up, and they began to ask what was wrong, clouding his head even more. "I..Shut up, just shut up!" he said as he crouched down, holding his head with his hands. He couldn't take it when they all talked at once..."I don't want to say....Please...just don't.." he said in a plea as he sat there, Grim and Jim both wanted to know what was wrong, but Kreg had gotten them all to hush..the only one he couldn't stop from talking was Akira...but that was because Akira wasn't in Aijou's head..

He felt like an idiot. No matter how much he tried to make the boy feel safe, no matter how much he tried to lend a helping hand, he'd only end up frightening the poor lad even more. Aijou had his own demons to battle with, and he most certainly didn't need to be pressured into revealing the identity of the ones who had hurt him.
Akira fetl his heart breaking into tiny pieces at the sight of Aijou crouched down on the floor, trembling, and begging him to stop with those uncomfortable questions...

"I... I... it's no use" he sighed, getting down on his knees, and leaning against the wall. "You must think I'm a monster, or a very bad person, because no matter what I do, you end up like this..."