The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

'So.. wouldn't it be the best if Master would come out to her? Tell her the truth and then come here with her? I'm sorry if I'm wrong.. I'm not too good in those things..' That written he thought a bit of the situation and if it would be really the best solution.

[RedRose4]

Josh looked rather surprised with what Akira had typed, not thinking it was a totally bad idea, in fact it was a good plan. Nodding his head, Josh smiled softly and spoke tenderly. "I think that's a great idea Akira. If I told her right away, it would probably mean I could come home earlier. No one would have to ask me hundreds of questions."

Although it was the best, and most conventional option, Josh knew it was gong to be difficult, and a part of him was rather scared to let everyone know about him. Very little actually did know about his sexuality, so going out and telling everyone was a little nerve-wracking.

[zajawa]

Akira smiled when he heard it was a great idea. And then he saw Josh's face. There was something he didn't see there ealier. Not even once. What was other male feeling right now. 'Are you alright, Master?'

[RedRose4]

Josh looked down for a moment in thought, trying to decipher a way he could tell everyone without crating too much havoc. He knew it would be best to start with the people who wouldn't care as much, mostly everyone expect Elizabeth, and his aunt. Sighing beneath his breath, Josh looked up and nodded his head slowly when he read what Akira had typed, looking into his boyfriends eyes and being unable to lie.

"I'm just a little nervous to tell them. I know I should embrace something such as this, but…I'm meant to be with a woman. Yet all I want is you, and you make me happier than any other woman could, no matter how hard they tried." Josh sighed and closed his eyes. The only woman in his life he really loved was his mother, someone who's place could never be filled.

[zajawa]

Akira blushed when he heard Josh and then even chuckled a bit from how happy he was hearing that. Thanks to other male being before him there was no negative thought about it. At least for now. 'I'm not sure.. but you should tell your aunt first. You said it is your mother sister.. She.. should understand.. Probably.. Maybe you should tell what you really feel Master? I don't know people and a lot of other things.. but shouldn't someone who cares about you understand your feelings? Or.. at least accept them?' Akira tried only to put everything he heard from Sangre and Josh together. It was all he knew about feelings and such after all.

[RedRose4]

Josh was incredibly surprised when he was reading what Akira had written, smiling to himself from the suggestion, and really seeing that his boyfriend really knew good ideas when he thought of them. Nodding his head slowly, Josh looked back at Akira and sighed.

"I think that's a wonderful plan. My aunt first, Christine, she should understand especially if I brought up my mom.." Josh knew it was playing a rather cheap card, to bring up someone so close to them, but it was a link that brought them together. She'd understand the most if he told her what his mom would do in this situation.
"Elizabeth is last, that's for sure." Josh mumbled beneath his breath.

[zajawa]

'Yes.. She is your closest family from what I read and heard from you, Josh. It would unrespectful to tell others before her.. And isn't she the person that would decide about everything in the end? She seems like those old times queens were. So.. telling her first seems like a best idea.. I may not think of myself as I should.. but I would try my best for you Master.' Akira looked then a bit surprised at what he sent. Some time ago it would be like some dream.. the idea of him speaking like that of himself.

[RedRose4]

Josh kept his hands off of the keyboard, allowing Akira to type for the time being. What he was reading made his heart slightly beat harder, as though the person he was speaking to knew exactly what to say. Taking a deep breath, Josh knew what Akira was saying was incredibly accurate, and very true, it was amazing how his mind worked.

"You are definitely right. Wow…my boyfriend is so very smart." Josh smiled softly before continuing. "I'll make sure to talk to her after dinner. I'll let you know as soon as possible what happens. And yes, you're right. I make the decisions in the end, so if no one accepts that about me, there's nothing they can do."

[zajawa]

Akira blushed up to his ears when he heard Josh. It was such a nice thing to hear. And know that other person really meant it. 'Yes. Tell me please. In the mean time I should clean the flower and take care of few other things.' He knew as sooner they end their conversation the sooner Josh would get over with this thing and would be, hopefully, calmer.

[RedRose4]

"Of course." Josh said instantly, taking a moment to look at Akira before he glanced at the door, knowing someone would come knocking on it soon to tell him to hurry back to his table.
"When I come back home, we'll plant a couple flowers together, how's that? Watch them grow from seeds to flowers." Josh smiled and slowly began to scoot out of his chair. "I'll tell you what happens the moment I'm free. I promise." Josh took a deep breath and sighed. "Talk to you soon Aki." He smirked softly.