Hunting for love [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

Aoki just nodded as he was still clinging to the other male. He wasn't able to do anything else. It was... so sad... so scary... And he said ealier that it was wrong to touch this book.. and yet everything went.. so wrong. Even when Cresil laid him in his bed he was still trembling.

[RedRose4]

Turning off the water and getting a clean towel, Cresil put Aoki onto the bed, drying both of them off before getting right next to him, wrapping his arms around the demon and kissing his forehead once more, facing him intentionally so he can make sure he can see his emotions.
“How about I tell you a bit about myself? You can listen to me speak, hopefully make you feel…well, might not make you feel better but it can help.”

Trying to think of something, he steered towards the more positive things in his life. It would be a bad idea to bring up any of his past experiences that were negative. “I can always let you know about the day I saved 'werewolf' puppies.” he said while shaking his head, the memory fresh in his mind to this day.

[zajawa]

Aoki was still shocked but when Cresil said that he looked at him.
"W-werewolfs puppies?", he asked softly, his eyes looking really defensless right now as well as himself. "Tell me about it..?"
The memories from his work were still fresh but closeness of his boyfriend, his warm, strong arms and his calm self were making him... feel save.
"You reascued them? How? Normally people want to kill all of them, young or old?"

[RedRose4]

Happy that Aoki was thinking of something else, at least if it was temporary, Cresil nodded a bit and chuckled faintly. “It was…accidental kind of.”
Keeping his arms around his boyfriend’s body, Cresil rubbed along Aoki’s back and shoulders before speaking in a low, soft voice. “They were young about two months old. Werewolf’s that were trapped in the stage of the canis lupus. Their wolf form. The mother had been killed by a local hunter while she was hunting for food, but before the bastard could get to the puppies, I gave him a broken nose and made him run off after he didn’t return his debts.”

Cresil smirked a bit and sighed. “There were three puppies there. Terrified, shaking. Probably thinking I was there to hurt them but instead, I found myself unable to just leave, knowing they’d die without their mom. So instead I picked every little rascal up, not without a fight of course, and brought them to this doctor I know. Name’s Kaley. Despite her bad veterinarian skills she still managed to keep them alive. So I guess I didn’t fully save them alone but I was a large reason for it.”

Smiling a bit more, he looked into Aoki’s eyes, whispering yet again as if he was telling a secret. “We let them free, but they still sometimes are seen near the surrounding outer area. They’re wild but slightly domesticated due to their upbringing. We can see them sometime, just us two.” he said as he played with the ends of Aoki’s hair. “One of them I think grew a bit attached to me though.” Cresil sighed as if it was a bad thing.

[zajawa]

Aoki wrapped his hands around Cresil's chest while listening to the story.
"That is good end. Because werewolfs.. are a bit like us. They are less inteligent.. but still.. they are not fully animals", said Aoki and the came back with his thought's to the archive. "You know... I said my boss it was a bad idea to open this book once again... And it was Mikaru shift... He was so young, just turned thirty one.. I found his on the stairs. It was just his head and everything apart... He was screaming so damn loud.. And the the worm popped out of his eye socket......"
Aoki nuzzled into Cresil's chest.

[RedRose4]

Nodding his head, Cresil kept his eyes locked with Aoki’s, and as he listened to him speak now, he was relieved to hear him talk about it. At least now he was able to without being overly upset. The mental image of that made Cresil cringe, shaking his head and holding Aoki tighter against him, as if he was trying to get him away from that memory.
“Must be so damn hard for you. I wish you didn’t have to see that.” Cresil closed his eyes momentarily and opened them a minute later. “Will you be okay? I know it wont leave your mind but you seem calmer than before.” he mumbled.

[zajawa]

Aoki took in Cresil's smell.
"I don't know.. It is somehow better when you hold me and speak to me. Though I don't understand why..", he said softly, a lot calmer than before. "I just... don't want see it anymore.."
Soon enough Aoki fell asleep.

Through the night he was tossing through his sleep and mumbling. There was even a time he screamed. When Cresil was asleep he stood up from the bad and went to the kitchen. After making himself a tea he just sat there. Due to what happened at work he was free tomorrow.

[RedRose4]

“Well, if you need me for any reason just let me know.” Cresil smiled, kissing the top of Aoki’s head and noticing him sleeping. He himself decided it would be good to sleep, he had barely slept last night and he loved it whenever he had a chance to doze off.
Aoki’s nightmares didn’t go completely unnoticed. Cresil had his eyes on the demon, waking up once in a while in worry but sleeping once more when he thought that it had passed.

After some time, Cresil opened his eyes, going to put his arm around Aoki but freezing as he noticed he hadn’t been there. “Aoki?” Cresil mumbled in a lost manner. Rubbing his eyes, the demon sat up, getting out of bed and putting jogging pants on quickly before heading out of the room.
It wasn’t long until he noticed Aoki sitting down in the kitchen. Cresil felt his heart nearly break, walking over and speaking with a slightly distressing voice. “Didn’t sleep well huh?” he asked.
In the back of his mind, he wanted to stay home again, be with Aoki and not go to work. But if he did his boss would be upset with him again, and he’d risk his career. At the same time, he never took many days off, maybe just one more before the weekend wouldn’t be too bad.
“I’ll go talk to my boss. I’m not leaving you alone for more than a few minutes.” Cresil suddenly said while walking over to the kitchen to make himself some tea as well. “Fuck, I wish I could just work with you so that I wouldn’t have to worry whenever you leave the house.” he mumbled beneath his breath, his gaze stern.

[zajawa]

"No... not really", he said quietly after Cresil asked about his sleep. "B-but... that will pass.."
Sipping his tea he looked at his partner when he told him about taking a free day and all else. Shaking his head he looked at his boyfriend.
"Are you sure that would be okay? I don't want you to get into troubles and... I'm just fine staying by myslef", he said but as he didn't put much heart into this lie due to how tired he felt it didn't really sound believable. "You.. should go to work. I would be just fine. I have the day off to get a grip of myself..."
Why the higher ups always had better? His boss could leave the mess.. and he was the one to take care of it... That sucked so much..

[RedRose4]

“Good.” Cresil breathed out but looked back at Aoki when he told him he didn’t have to stay. As he spoke of being home by himself, he felt a rising feeling in his chest, uncomfortable for a moment until he spoke up.
“Not letting that happen. I can’t work when I know you’re here alone, I’d be way too distracted.” Sitting beside Aoki, Cresil put his drink down for a moment, kissing Aoki’s lips very softly before looking into his eyes.

“I’m not leaving you.” Cresil said again and cupped his cheek softly. “I doubt you’d leave me if the roles were reversed.” he pointed out and looked around with a sigh. “You need anything? I’ll have to go out for just five minutes or so but I’ll be right back. On the way I can bring something that might make you feel better.” He asked. Aoki didn’t need to choose anything but if there was anything that might help, he’d get it.