.-One Time Too Much -. {Private with me and zajawa}

[RedRose4]

Just before Kaden could get very far with his advances, he suddenly stopped at the sensation of Deiru kicking him rather hard against his balls. Hissing in pain, Kaden of course let go of the other demon and attended to his own pain. It only lasted a few long seconds until he saw where Deiru went and fixed his pants in order to follow.
Just as he was about to get mad, Kaden stopped when he saw Deiru sitting like that. It was as though that part of him that had at least a little bit of care for the smaller man came out, and his anger and sexual need left momentarily.
Standing there, Kaden put his hands at his sides, not moving for a moment as he just thought to himself. He knew about Deiru’s past, remembered what his father did to him, and now Kaden was forcing himself onto the demon. Shaking his head at his own actions, he slowly kneeled down in front of Deiru, clenching his jaw and not touching him.
“Fuck, I’m sorry.” Kaden muttered, taking a deep breath and feeling as though his body was beginning to get weak again just like it had been before, as though the adrenaline wore off. Moving his hand to very carefully touch Deiru’s lower leg, Kaden looked at the demon and said once again. “I’m sorry Deiru.”

[zajawa]

Deiru flinched and closed his eyes when he heard some steps. Now he would get it. But then nothing happened. Then he heard Kaden saying his sorry. First he couldn't believe his ears but then it was repeated. Feeling the warm hand touching his leg he opened his eyes and looked guardedly from under his bangs. He then wiped his eyes quickly and stood up. Seeing his hands were trembling he put them in his pockets.
"Let's go home", he muttered, not looking at Kaden too embarrassed with how scared he got.. and close to crying.

[RedRose4]

Kaden drew his hand back and returned it to his side. Now he really felt like an asshole. Deiru looked horrified, pissed off and scared all at the same time. When he spoke of going home, Kaden stood up and nodded. “Alright…want me to leave first?” He wondered. If Deiru wanted him to, he’d head home by himself and whenever the young demon decided, he could go too. Kaden wasn’t sure exactly what Deiru was thinking, so there was a part of the older demon that was a bit confused, like a child that had done something wrong and had no idea what to do about it.
There was a part of Kaden, a very small part of him that wanted to wrap his arms around Deiru, although he doubted the other demon wanted that right now. Instead, with another heavy breath, Kaden took another few steps back to give Deiru some room.

[zajawa]

Deiru let out a shaky breath and rubbed his cheeks. Taking few breaths in and out he calmed himself enough to look at Kaden. One good thing was that older demon seemed to be lost.. and regret what he had done. And he wasn't so scary anymore.
"Nah.. let's go home.. We can finish our date there", he said softly, looking on the ground.
That said he went out of the alley and started to walk slowly in the direction of Kaden's home.

[RedRose4]

Kaden still didn’t look away from Deiru, even as he finally looked at him, it was difficult to stray his eyes somewhere else. When he finally did answer, Kaden nodded and watched as he walked towards his home. Taking a few seconds, he soon followed, being behind Deiru inside of beside him.
Kaden wondered if he completely fucked up the day, it wasn’t his intention to make Deiru feel bad, or get him upset. In fact, Kaden was pissed off at himself for making the young demon feel so badly.
Thankfully his home wasn’t too far away, so Kaden didn’t walk fast, matching the same pace as Deiru and glancing back at him, not sure what to say, or do still. Instead, Kaden kept quiet and just tried to think of what to do in order to make up it to him.

[zajawa]

Soon they were home. Deiru waited for Kaden to open the doors and walked inside. Taking off his shoes he went to the fridge and opened a beer for himself. Drinking half of it he then went to the living room and put on the clothes from there. Folding the one he had on.. the date he put them inside the bag with others that was laying next to the couch. That done he went back to the kitchen and sat at the table. Leaning on the chair he sat there, letting his thought wander while he sipped his beer.

[RedRose4]

As they got to his house, Kaden opened the door, stepping in after Deiru and watching what the other man did. Of course he had to give him some sort of privacy, so Kaden walked to his bedroom and clenched his jaw, getting something a bit comfier on and heading over to his bed to sit down.
Resting his elbows against his knees, Kaden grabbed either side of his head, looking down and closing his eyes. “Fucking idiot.” he whispered to himself, his eyes opening and starring down at the wooden floorboards beneath him. He couldn’t just stay in his room and act like nothing happened, but he also couldn’t go in and start bothering Deiru about it either.
After a few minutes, Kaden stood up from his bed and left his room, heading towards the table Deiru was sitting at and making sure to sit across from him so he wasn’t right in his face.
“Deiru…” Kaden looked at him, his expression rather void of any emotion as he spoke. “Can I say something?” he asked.

[zajawa]

He flinched when something interrupted his thoughts. It turned out it was probably the sound of moved chair. Deiru then looked on demons face and saw it was strangely void of any emotion. It was really.. odd to see Kaden like that.
"Since when you're asking me about that?", joked Deiru softly but then sighed. "Sure. Ask. I'm all ears."
Something was evidently up.. but what? Blue eyes scanned Kaden while he waited for him to speak.

[RedRose4]

Even if Deiru joked, that didn’t seem to help Kaden whatsoever. Instead, he simply looked from the man in front of him, to the table he was sitting in front of. It was strange how much it bothered him while Deiru looked fine, although Kaden wasn’t sure if he was just acting like that, or was actually not effected about earlier.
“I just feel like a fucking bastard right now.” Kaden began to speak while looking back up at Deiru. “I messed up the entire day, the entire date with what I did. And what’s worse…” Kaden could hear his own voice raising, so he calmed down and took a deep breath before resuming in a softer voice.
“What’s worse is that I don’t know why. I said it already but I apologize, I guess seeing another man wanting you just gets on my nerves.”
Kaden looked back down, his emotions conflicted although he wasn’t too bad. There were no signs of depression or being sad, mostly just being upset with himself. “Just try not to hold a grudge against me for being too damn persistent.”

[zajawa]

He let Kaden talk while he listened to Kaden and then he shook his head.
"You messed up a date.. but there is a lot of hours left so you can't be sure about the day", he started. "I knew you were crazy from the start so.. I'm fine. It's nice of you that you apologized.. and actually feel bad about scaring a shit out of me. If not for that.. I guess I would get hard. But... whatever.. It happened.. and it's all."
That said he finished his beer and stood up and put it into the trashbin. He was still shaken up with what had happened but some time and beer let him to calm down enough to act normal. Only thing he needed to get back to normal was some more time.