.-One Time Too Much -. {Private with me and zajawa}

[RedRose4]

What Deiru said barely seemed to calm Kaden down. A bar stool? No wonder he looked so beat up, and then the older demon wished he was there so he could beat the fuck out of the guy. Glancing over at the beer, it seemed welcoming, very welcoming. Kaden was glad that Deiru was better now, even if it meant he was injured in the process.
“Broken? Shit..” Kaden looked at Deiru’s wrist, reaching his hand out and carefully grasping it in order to feel if they were actually broken. “I can still try.” Kaden said, clearly too stubborn to deny healing Deiru right now. Then he looked back up when he began talking about before, making Kaden feel just a bit better knowing he didn’t think he was like him. He would rather be dead than be like Deiru’s father.
“Don’t….just don’t be sorry, you don’t need an excuse for that. I’m stupid sometimes, I don’t think before I speak or act. You deserve a lot better than me sometimes so I should be saying sorry.” Looking down at the food, Kaden took a moment before speaking.
“Let me try healing you a bit, then we’ll eat. All that shit from before…I’m just glad you’re…better.” Kaden mumbled, looking back at Deiru’s wrist, very carefully holding it in both of his hands, needing to try to heal him even if it would be a lot more difficult than just a flesh wound.

[zajawa]

"Mhm.. Thanks", he said softly after flinching as his wrist was touched.
Waiting for Kaden to start healing he decided to talk some more.
"I.. with all those things that changed in my life.. because.. of you.. You.. giving me something I could call a home.. taking care of me.. sharing fun moments.. I got a bit scared.. and also wasn't able to deal with my feelings. I'm.. not used to them.. They are confusing..", he sighed, rubbing his forehead with his other hand and blushing a bit. "I.. was jealous of Animal... He is so innocent.. I guess what I'm trying to say.. I would like to stay with you.. i-if you don't mind me getting attached.. I.."
Deiru blushed deeply, not really knowing how to say the rest of what he was feeling, needing few moments to collect himself.

[RedRose4]

Focusing his energy on Deiru’s wrist, Kaden listened to the demon although kept his eyes on what he was healing, in order to focus a bit better. Despite that, every single word Deiru said registered into Kaden’s mind, and most of it was rather surprising.
Kaden had to look up once he heard Deiru speak of his feelings of jealousy, and how he was actually growing attached. There was a moment of silence, Kaden was shocked, unsure what to say for a few moments before he whispered.

“Animal’s innocence doesn’t mean I like him more. Always know that I care for you both the same because both sides are you in some way or another. And yes….it would make me really happy if you stayed. Just as long as you don’t mind me growing attached too.” Kaden finished, leaning up to un-expectantly kiss Deiru’s lips, the action soft and unrushed, something neither of them had really shared together.
“We can be scared and confused together then…see how it works out between…us.” Kaden glanced back down at his wrist, carefully moving his thumb across the top to see if the bone was healed. “Almost done. Is it helping yet at all?” Kaden had to ask, knowing he’d move onto the other parts of Deiru’s body once they finished eating.

[zajawa]

And collecting himself went to hell when he was kissed all of a sudden after all those words. Hearing to be confused together actually made him chuckle.
"Mhm.. It's all better. Thanks", he muttered and then looked at Kaden. "I like you when you're not an asshole. I guess.. it's what changed me. Is it really fine to be scared? Doesn't that make us weak. As well as.. feelings to someone?"
It was easier to ask Kaden about that when he was so calm, nice.. and knowing that Deiru wasn't only one feeling unsure.

[RedRose4]

Nodding his head, Kaden took his hands off of Deiru for the time being so they could eat. Turning to face the food, the demon first grasped the beer and glanced back at Deiru when he asked that.
“I’ll try not to be an asshole more often then. And…it’s fine to be scared if it means we’re scared together. Plus…having feelings for another person isn’t always bad Deiru. When I compare my emotions to before I met you, how I felt about everything…I wouldn’t even care if we fought all the time. It’s better than how I used to be, how I used to feel when I was alone.”
Looking back at his beer, Kaden made sure it was open before taking a drink of it, and then attending to the food before him. “Thanks for this by the way. I’ll fix your other wounds when we’re done eating.” Kaden muttered while looking at Deiru’s eyes. It was a shame to see something so beautiful being surrounded by wounds.

[zajawa]

"Could you treat that before though?", he asked as he reached to his shirt and showed place that looked much worse than he wrist.
His back was already all swelled up and it all showed there surely needed to be some broken places. Probably few. It was strange that Deiru was able to actually move with it.
"It's okay. It seems I like preparing food from time to time. When I'll get my first bounty I thought.. that maybe getting cooking lessons wasn't a bad idea. And...", he stopped before adding it, his cheeks still flushed. "..I didn't say what I thought then.. I feel better compared to.. how I felt before you. I think.. I felt... lonely. And with you making Animal come out.. helped me really much..."

[RedRose4]

Before taking a bite of his food, Kaden put it down instantly when he lifted his shirt and saw just how badly he was hurt. “Fuck.” he whispered, gently putting his hand against Deiru’s back and shaking his head. Kaden hated to see him hurt, and knowing someone else inflicted this upon him made the older demon pay special attention to the injuries.
Glancing back up at Deiru, Kaden nodded when he heard him speak of cooking. “That sounds like a good idea. You’re really good at cooking.” Kaden said rather quietly, but what Deiru said next surprised the demon yet again.
Actually cracking a smile when he heard that, Kaden looked at Deiru for a little longer before focusing on his wound. “I’m really glad to hear that. It’s nice to know you don’t hate me…and that you’re happy you’ve met me.” Kaden sighed in relief. Hearing what Deiru said earlier made him ponder if his own feelings were one sided, but now that he told him the truth, Kaden felt a lot better.

[zajawa]

Even with how gentle Kaden was Deiru flinched. It really damn hurt.
"Really? I'm good?", he asked and then he added, hearing other thing that Kaden said. "I don't.. just sometimes. When you're an asshole. And I am.. It... really was lonely. And.. I make sure to get all those feeling bottling up in me out... so it was easier to think.."
It sure was true. Deiru and Kaden were not different in it. Though then he saw the hole in a wall. Entirely accidentally.
"You let out your feelings as well I see?", he asked, being quite serious.

[RedRose4]

When Deiru flinched, Kaden stopped momentarily and then carefully went back to healing him. “Compared to me, you’re a chef. Yes, I love your cooking.” Kaden said rather seriously, but of course showing his playful side as well.
“Well..” Kaden glanced back up at Deiru and spoke. “I’m glad you aren’t as lonely. And I’m also glad you don’t let your frustration out with killing anymore.” As he finally got a bit closer to healing Deiru, Kaden looked at the wall when he heard him ask that, looking a little disgraced for a moment.
“Yeah…thought it would be better to let my frustration out on the wall this time instead of myself…” Kaden kept quiet after that, rubbing along Deiru’s skin and then looking at him. “Tell me if this hurts.” The demon muttered, putting a little bit of pressure on the spot he had just healed to ensure it was completely back to normal.

[zajawa]

He flinched a bit when Kaden rubbed that spot, though it was much better.
"Thanks.. And well.. before..", he paused but decided to get everything out from his system. ".. there was that anger... it was maddening. I think maybe because Animal was still hidden? Not sure exactly.. And it wasn't like I killed innocent people.. well maybe some.. I'm not sure..", the last part he whispered, now regretting it a bit.
"It still feels nice to get rough here and there.. but I don't feel it anymore.."