.-One Time Too Much -. {Private with me and zajawa}

[RedRose4]

Kaden washed himself up, taking breaks in between walking before laying back in bed and sleeping for a short while. A few minutes before Deiru got in the house, Kaden woke up, staying in bed a little while longer and putting his hands up above his head. Deciding to heal himself, or at least trying to, Kaden put his hand on his chest and throughout the rest of his body, wondering if maybe the blood would somehow increase with the healing process.
While in the midst of that, Kaden paused when Deiru walked into his room, taking his hand away from his body and looking up at the ceiling, not really knowing what the demons mood was, if he’d nag him about killing himself once more. Whatever. Kaden kept his eyes away from him for now, waiting for him to make a smart-ass remark towards him yet again.
Kaden parted his lips to talk, wanting to say something but he chickened out and just shut his mouth.

[zajawa]

When he saw Kaden with his hand on his chest he didn't know what to think but then he thought that maybe he shouldn't ask.
"I bought some beer and smokes.. as well as fruits if you want", he said only and went back to the livingroom not really trying to talk with Kaden.
If he would want to talk he would and if not then let him be. He already told him what he wanted and saying anything more wasn't necessery. Opening another beer he opened magazine on the article he didn't finish ealier amd just focused on that fpr the time being.

[RedRose4]

Kaden kept his head up, although his gaze flickered to Deiru when he spoke…and he actually didn’t say anything rude. Watching as he left, Kaden felt rather parched, his throat was dry, and a beer…it sounded so good right now.
Sitting up slowly, Kaden could feel his head being less woozy already, of course he wasn’t in tip-top shape but he found himself being able to move without wanting to fall over. Getting up from his bed, Kaden took a deep breath, walking slowly into the living room and glancing at Deiru. He’d talk to him about what happened later, right now he wanted a drink.
“Where’s the beer?” Kaden asked without any sign of anger to his voice, leaning against the wall for a moment while looking mindlessly around the room.

[zajawa]

"Some is in the fridge still and some is here.. Though I believe the one from the fridge could be cooler a bit", he said, not looking from the magazine. "Want me to bring you one or are you able to take it yourself? Lifting you up from the floor too often isn't good for my spine.."
Deiru said it without any anger as well. With soft sigh he tirned the page. They were writing about endangered species of sea monster and opinions of some people written down in magazine were making him sigh now and then. Fucking morons.. Human.. as well as demons killed more than the poor creature in two years.. He himself did. And telling it should die.. was just unfair..

[RedRose4]

Nodding slightly, Kaden kept a hand against his wall while heading towards the fridge slowly, opening it and managing to lean over to grab the cold beverage. When Deiru asked him that, Kaden rolled his eyes, although answered without sarcasm or irritation.
“I’m fine, thanks.” Opening the bottle, Kaden took a large swig of the beer, drinking almost half of it within a few seconds before he began to head back towards his room. Pausing halfway, Kaden glanced at the couch, sighing and making his way there instead.

Finally reaching it, although taking at least a few minutes, Kaden sat down on the other side, leaving room between himself and Deiru in the process. “I know you probably don’t give a shit if I say this or not but…thank you.” Kaden said while looking down at the ground.
He didn’t want to die, but he probably would have. He was a moron, cutting that deep was dangerous, cutting at all was stupid on it’s own, and it was obvious now that he could see that.

[zajawa]

Closing the magazine he was reading he looked at Kaden when he said that.
"Don't be so sure about what you know then", he said as he finished his beer and litting his cigarette.
Observing Kaden he sighed at how pale he was.
"If not for Animal and his healing powers you would be dead now.. you are aware of that?", he asked quietly.
He fell silent waiting for the answer. There were just two more things he wanted to know.. though he suspected that he wouldn't be given an answer tp his questions.

[RedRose4]

Kaden’s gaze focused on Deiru when he spoke first, trying to understand what he meant in a way that wasn’t so…impossible. To Kaden, the other demon didn’t care much for him, it seemed that any chance he got he’d make sure to remind him of that, but the way he spoke now made it sound as if that wasn’t true, that Deiru didn’t really hate him.
When asked that question, Kaden yet again looked away from Deiru and starred at the blank television. After a few minutes, he began to speak unhurriedly and lowly. “Yeah…I know.” Kaden responded simply, drinking his beer slower now while contemplating.

[zajawa]

"Why did you do that? Did it make something better or easier?", he asked curiously, not really getting it.
Kaden didn't look like a suicidal type to him.. though he said ealier that he always had a death wish. It was kind of interesting. Was he able to stay so close to him because of that he didn't really care if Deiru would kill him? Till now he didn't really analyze that.. though after what had happen today he wanted to know.. Though probably Kaden would just say it's not his damn business and to take his stupid questions elsewhere. But one could always ask, right?

[RedRose4]

Kaden didn’t even look away when Deiru asked that, he stayed the same throughout the sentence until there was silence. Why the hell did he even care? Kaden sighed, he probably just wanted to know more about his psycho thoughts, to use it against him in the future so he could say how pathetic he was.
After at least five minutes passed, Kaden looked down at the ground, putting his legs up onto the couch and tucking them under himself while speaking.
“I do it to stop my thoughts….” Kaden started, speaking in a low, distant voice. “Every few years I’m brought to a point where I think I have to do something, anything to burden myself from thinking, so I feel pain. Pain makes me feel better. It makes me forget for just a little while….” Kaden then closed his eyes. Of course the aspect of pain during sex counted slightly, but usually in that situation his mind was clear. The only real things that got his mind off of his problems was pain and sex, and if combined it made him feel better than anything in the world.

[zajawa]

As the moment of silence was getting longer nad longer Deiru wasn't sure if he would get his answer. Though when he did that made him ask even more questions. It was strange.. but he really wanted to know. He was curious.. but there were also other feelings that were quite new for him. Not really in a mood to analyze them he just focused on Kaden for the time being.
"What thought's?", asked Deiru, tilting his head. "And what brings you to that point? And makes you forget what exactly?"