The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

'And what happened? If that's alright to ask..' Akira went back to eating seeing that Josh was more than half done and he just barely started. Drinking his juice he ate the first sandwich and went to the second wandering what could it be. Or shouldn't he ask actually? Though being in a kitchen and knowing everybody was sleeping gave him.. a bit of calmness he was normally lacking.

[RedRose4]

Josh looked at Akira for a few seconds and then back down at his food. He ate for a minute or two in silence, thinking back to the moment and creasing his brow. Once he looked back up at Akira, he obviously seemed bothered.
“It was an incident with someone who worked here. They….” Josh rubbed his forehead and looked at the table. “She was a sue chef working with Sangre, and something happened to nearly her entire family so she….hung herself, from her window. I guess I just felt like I could have done something.” Josh looked at Akira, thinking for a few seconds and then smirking very faintly. “But….maybe by saving your life, it kind of balanced out.” he said hopefully while going back to eating. “I didn’t know her much but Sangre did, they were really good friends, so maybe you even filled that role for him too. ” Josh said.

[zajawa]

Akira stopped eating and looked at Josh as soon as he heard that sad tone of voice. Though without interrupting he listened to all of the story. 'And what could you do, Master?' He wanted to know more about Josh and his feelings because he knew without it he wouldn't know he like he should. If he was his servant and.. something more as Josh himself said.. he should get to know more. And probably not many people asked about how he felt or what he thought deep inside.. and things like that could hurt. Akira knew that the best.

[RedRose4]

Taking a deep breath, Josh put his food aside for a few seconds, his appetite leaving for a little while. “I guess I thought I could have…spoken to her. Of course I didn’t take it as badly as some of the others, we had her here for about eight months before it happened. But still, I’m the person who runs this place, and I should have been the one to do something.”
Josh leaned back in his seat a little more, his voice a mere whisper since it was just so quiet. “It was obvious something was bothering her, but I wasn’t like I am now. A year and a half ago I was new to this, and I was stuck up. I barely cared about others and look what happened.” Josh said while eyeing the table in font of him. “I could have helped, that’s all.” he finished while glancing back at Akira.

[zajawa]

'I don't know much about things like that too much.. But you did stop by someone like me and took him home.' Akira's green eyes looked calmly into maroon ones. 'And you will help Harumi. You are a good person.'

[RedRose4]

Josh’s eyes focused on Akira’s hands, going back to his green eyes whenever he paused or stopped writing. Nodding his head, Josh knew that was true, and even if he couldn’t save someone’s life, he could, and has saved others.
“You’re right. Thanks Akira…I plan on talking with Harumi when everyone’s awake. And since Elizabeth is coming over, I have to make sure she’s okay.” Josh glowered almost at the sound of her name coming from his mouth. He shook his head and ate the rest of his food, feeling extremely satisfied, nearly full from the food he ate. “And I have to stay near you when she’s here…or at least I’ll have to keep an eye on her. I don’t want her being around you, especially if she finds out….about us.” Josh ended with a very low voice, almost inaudible.

[zajawa]

Akira tilted his head. 'How would she know that? You, me and Sangre are the only ones that know.. we have..' He paused blushing deeply. '.. have sex.. and kis.. sed..' Akira blushed even stronger when he remembered all what they done.

[RedRose4]

When Akira began to write that, Josh himself almost wanted to blush. Rubbing his cheek, he looked at Akira and cleared his throat. “But if she finds out, that’s what I’m worried about. I…don’t know how she’d feel, but it wouldn’t be good.”
Furrowing his eyebrows and shaking his head once more, Josh closed his eyes and just tried to think about something a little positive. Instantly Akira came into his mind and he opened his eyes to look at him….it was like the man was his own medicine whenever he felt angry or upset, just look at him or think about him and his feelings changed.
“You’ll be safe. Elizabeth is never around you alone, nor does she really like to leave me alone.” Josh said while rolling his eyes.

[zajawa]

Akira shook his head at those words. 'I'm more concerned for you, Master. You're the one that is stressed only saying aloud Lady's name. As well as Harumi. I hope tomorrow everything would go well for both of you.' That said Akira at last went back to eating. Soon he ended eating and drunk his juice. Standing up he took both plates and glasses. As soon as they were washed he looked at Josh. 'What are 'icecreams'? I read that in one of ealier books and forgot to ask. I know it's sweet, cold.. the kind of dessert. But what is it?'

[RedRose4]

“For me?” Josh mumbled and looked a bit taken aback. He had no idea that he looked, and acted stressed out but it was easily apparent. He’d usually get easily pissed off at people when he was but lately his anger had lowered, for very obvious reasons.

Thinking over what Akira wrote, Josh looked at him yet again when he got up to do the dishes. He wanted to say he didn’t have to but there was a part of him that knew he wanted to be useful, and doing the dishes was just that. Standing up from the table, Josh looked at Akira and smiled very vaguely when he asked about ice cream.
“It’s…mostly made from milk, it can come in different flavours like; vanilla, chocolate, mint hm, a lot more. And they are a dessert, very cold, you’d have to be careful when you eat it or else your brain will feel like it‘s frozen.” Josh walked over to the freezer, opened it and rummaged through it a bit. “We do have some, vanilla only though. Want to try?” Josh asked while glancing at Akira curiously.