The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

When he was grabbed by the wrist all of a sudden he was a bit surprised. Looking at Josh he stood there obediently, letting other male wipe his cuts, flinching now and then. Akira shook his head asked about pain. 'I don't really feel the scratches.. and the chin hurts but not a lot.. just a bit. I'm sorry for making troubles for you, Master.' Looking down he sighed. He needed to try harder... after all being so clumsy was irritating for others.. and also made things harder. 'I'm really sorry..'

[RedRose4]

The cloth Josh was using stained slightly with blood, wringing it out before wiping them a little more again. When he finished cleaning them up, Josh went into the nearby cabinet and took out disinfectant, taking a few cotton balls and dampening it with that.
Reading what Akria wrote, Josh shook his head and began to gently dab the cuts with the disinfectant carefully. “You aren’t troubling me at all Akira. In fact...this is nice, to do something to get my mind off of what happened earlier.” Josh sighed lightly. “Right now, anything is better than thinking of what might happen to me, so I‘ll let these moments last, don‘t apologize.” he whispered while dabbing at his cuts.

[zajawa]

Flinching from time to time he started to get worried. 'Would there be a lot of trouble of that? You can loose you status or something? Home? And how's your cheek, Master.' Akira was really worried about other male and it showed on his pale face and in his green eyes as he looked at Josh.

[RedRose4]

Josh dabbed a bit slower when Akira looked so concerned, reading everything he wrote and frowning ever so slightly. He had to think a bit more, trying to think of a explanation before speaking. “I’ll be able to stay here, they can’t kick me out of a home my family has had for generations but…I’m afraid I might be… ridden of my status, at least I won’t be anyone’s Master, I do have some family left, they’d most likely be in command instead of me if worst comes to worst. If I’m lucky though nothing bad will happen. Maybe if I get enough testimonies for what Elizabeth did, they’ll understand and I can live my life like I always have.”

Josh stopped dabbing once he was done, looking into Akira’s green worried eyes and bringing a hand up to very softly brush his fingers along his cheek. “Listen. No matter what happens, I’ll always be here with you. I’ll be okay.” Josh smiled softly. “Besides, they can’t do anything to me, I’m too much of an asset.”

[zajawa]

Akira looked even more worried after hearing all that. 'Asset.. that doesn't sound good. Do you like your life, Master? I'm sorry if I sound insolent asking about that.. but from what you and Snagre said.. it's okay to ask.. right?' He was still a bit awkward about asking and such things. He still felt that if he asked too much he would be punished.. or hit.. or something like that. It was the same for making mistakes.

[RedRose4]

Throwing away the dirtied swabs as well as the cloth, Josh washed his hands and looked back at the wound on Akira’s chin, making sure he didn’t need more gauze for it. After a little inspecting, he answered Akira’s question. “It’s fine to ask me, I don’t mind.” With a few seconds to think, Josh answered in a soft voice.
“I like it, yes. When I was younger I thought I hated it, but that was because I was a child and used to getting everything I wanted expect the attention of my parents.” Josh sighed and kept going. “But now I see that I have so much…saying I don’t like my life is rather selfish compared to others lives. I wouldn’t say I love it, but I like it. Boring and lonely at times but other than that, it’s nice.” Josh said before looking at Akira. “And how about you…do you like your life now?” he wondered.

[zajawa]

Akira listened to all Josh said and then went to the bedroom and showed master to come with him. When he saw the cat sleeping on his bed he couldn't help but smile. Sitting on it he looked at Josh. 'I'm still confused.. a little scared.. I like when you hug me master.. but most of the time I don't really know what to think.. But I love being in kitchen.. that I can read all those books.. and the way you, Master, seemed to care about every little thing I do. It's.. nice.. but I still have problems to think about it as something normal.. and I'm scared.. But I'm really happy I'm here.' Akira knew he wrote a lot.. but just hoped Josh was able to read all that.

[RedRose4]

Following close behind Akira, Josh walked into his room as well, looking at the cat momentarily and smiling. It was nice to see her being able to rest, especially on a comfortable bed instead of the ground outside.
Sitting down beside Akira, Josh paid close attention to what he wrote, having to think over what he had written before being able to understand. With a light smile, Josh nodded, happy with that answer. “I’m glad to hear that. I just…want to make sure you’re comfortable here with everything that’s going on. Oh.” Josh remembered Akira had asked about his cheek earlier, bringing his hand up to touch it.
“Luckily she isn’t too strong, so my face is fine by the way, I‘m not in any physical pain. And it’s nice to hear you like my hugs.” Josh chuckled softly, instantly bringing his arms out and wrapping them around Akira to hug him softly. “Making you happy makes me happy too.” he whispered.

[zajawa]

"But I don't understand it all..", he said softly, still feeling pain while talking.
Though he hugged back Josh. With a sigh he put his head on others chest. Closing his eyes he sighed once again.
"Who am I? I'm your servant.. but..", Akira paused, trying to understand.

[RedRose4]

With his arms around Akira, Josh was surprised to hear the sound of his voice, of course though it calmed him despite his confusion. There was a small silence until Josh decided to answer, his own voice a little hesitant.
“I…I’m not exactly sure what you’d be to me Akira, but you mean a lot. You aren’t a servant, that is just the title of your job. Although…the way I treat you is similar to how boyfriends act together.” Josh chuckle softly since that word was just so unlike him. “A couple. But I’m not sure if that’s what we are. It’s confusing I know, but you’re Akira, and I think that’s perfect, there doesn’t have to be a title to what you, or we are.” Josh said softly. "If that's what you asked." he muttered, knowing he probably got off topic but he wondered it himself.