The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

'Nothing important.. really..' Akira closed his eyes with a deep sigh. 'I just.. don't want to be a bother.. I'm so useless..' Once again his pesimitic, self-doubting nature showed itself.

[RedRose4]

Josh frowned when he saw Akira writing those things about himself again, shaking his head and grasping either side of his head to lift it up, making him look into his eyes. “Akira, should I go over all of the things that I like about you again? Because I will if you think of yourself like that. Don’t listen to what those evil thoughts in your mind tell you, they aren’t true.”
Josh wrapped his arms around Akira but kept himself back slightly so he could look into his eyes still, his lips near Akira’s as he did. “I think you’re spectacular.” Brushing his lower lip against his servants, Josh smiled lightly and looked at him softly.

[zajawa]

Akira tensed up when Josh made him to look into his maroon eyes. Though he didn't answer he listened to every word. As the warm arms wrapped around him he relaxed a bit. 'I'm sorry.. I'm just really worried.. Sangre told me after I asked what could happen after you would break off with Elizabeth.. He told me and said that I shouldn't worry because nor him nor you Master wouldn't leave me alone.. but there are so many things I don't know.. I would be a bother.. a burden..' Akira bit on his lower lip as he finished writing. 'And even now I'm bothering you, Master..'

[RedRose4]

Looking once again at what Akira was writing, Josh found it hard to read everything without cutting in, waiting for him to finish first before taking a deep breath. When he finished what he was saying with that final comment, Josh creased his brow and looked into Akira’s eyes.
“You aren’t at all bothering me. Listen…you Akira, make me feel happy, less lonely, and….maybe even cared for ever since my parents died. You’ll never be a burden. Do you understand?” Josh looked into Akira’s green eyes and shook his head. “You don’t bother me, in fact sometimes I wonder if I’m too persistent with you, that I bother you because of how much time I want to spend with you. If I had to spend my whole life beside you, fine. I wouldn‘t be upset because your presence never burdens me.”

[zajawa]

Hearing all that Akira blushed a bit. He kind of understand because Josh made him feel the same way. Happy, less lonely and cared for. Looking shyly at him he met his gaze. And then he heard those words. Shaking his head energetically. 'I don't understand the part of being persistent.. but you would never bother me, Master! I really like to spend my time with you. I feel safely.. and cared for.. happy and not lonely..' Writing all that Akira's cheeks reddened.

[RedRose4]

The disappointment left Josh when he saw Akira write back to him and blush, a smile returning to his face as he chuckled. “That’s good, I feel the same way. I promise if I ever need time to myself I’ll tell you….although so far I find myself not wanting to leave your side so…stay with me.” Josh brushed his fingers once more along Akira’s flushed cheeks before leaning in to kiss him, leaving his lips against his for a few seconds before drawing back a moment later to look back into his eyes.

[zajawa]

Akira blushed stronger hearing all that and seeing that smile on other males lips. And he really loved the kiss.. so much that when it ended he moved to initiate another kiss.. but somehow slipped and with his face on Josh's chest. Of course he needed to hurt his chin in the process what made him gasp and the cut on it bleed again.

[RedRose4]

Josh was surprised when Akira came in for another kiss but suddenly seemed to slip. His hands quickly grasped at the side of his head, holding it up so he could look at him, worry stricken on his features although he tried to hide it, knowing Akira would surely believe he did something wrong if he looked overly upset.

“You’re bleeding. Let’s go to the bathroom.” Josh said as he stood up from the bed, helping Akira up with his hand and guiding him towards the bathroom where he hurriedly began to dampen a towel with cold water.
“Are you okay? The wound re-opened. I’m not upset with you I promise. And this will be a little cold.” Josh smiled lightly and pressed the cool towel against the cut softly in an attempt to stop the bleeding. “I just got worried.”

[zajawa]

Following Josh he sighed. He was really clumsy today.. Flinching while Josj pressed his chin with a wet towel he looked at him glad he wasn't angry at him. 'I'm sorry I dirtied your shirt Mas.. Josh. And I'm sorry for giving you trouble..'

[RedRose4]

Keeping the cloth pressed to his chin, Josh looked into Akira’s eyes and shook his head. “You have no reason to be sorry. You’re the one who’s hurt, my shirt is an object and you’re a person.” Josh gently brought Akira’s hand up to make him hold the cloth against his chin while he brought both of his hands down to his own shirt, lifting it up and taking it off.
Putting it on the sink for now, Josh grabbed the towel again from Akira while inspecting the wound, still seeing a little blood so he put it back. “And you’re correcting yourself, that’s good…although still you mustn’t blame yourself with something you have no control over, it’s okay Akira.” Josh looked back into his eyes and smirked again. “I probably have almost a hundred shirts.”