The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

For him everyone were.. Remembering some bad stuff he tried to think about something else. When asked by master about washing hair he nodded. There wasn't anything he would deny Josh, after saving his life he was his to use him how he saw fit. After all who he was to say 'no' to master? Deep in his thoughts Akira looked a bit sad somehow right now.

[RedRose4]

Despite Akira allowing him to do what he asked, Josh still knew something was wrong. It was confirmed when he saw the sad look on his face, making him draw his hands back down and put the shampoo away. Leaning on the bathtub, Josh ran his fingers through the water, touching the foam that was still built up, not as much as a number of minutes ago but there was still a lot leftover.
“You aren’t telling me something.” Josh mumbled as he looked into Akira’s downcast eyes. “You shouldn’t keep things from me. I wouldn’t be upset if you told me.”

Josh was tempted to reach out and hold Akira. He just seemed so distant compared to others, especially with the inability to speak. It was almost as though he had his own world isolated from others and Josh didn’t like that philosophy.

[zajawa]

Akira looked surprised at master and shook his head. 'It's okay. I'm just.. nobody.. I'm sure Master have much more important things to do. I'm sorry I'm such a bother to you. And I would do everything you want me to, Master. I know my place..' After he wrote that he thought that it wasn't a good thing to write. He hoped that it wouldn't anger other male. 'I'm sorry. I shouldn't write that.."

[RedRose4]

Josh stopped moving his hand in the water as Akira spoke of himself like that, upsetting him greatly for some unknown reason. Before expressing how upset he was, Josh stopped when Akira mentioned how he shouldn’t have said that, instantly retaliating with a stronger voice than usual.
“No. Listen to me Akira.” Josh knew it might have scared his servant but he didn’t care, he put his hand out and grasped the mans jaw, making him look into his eyes. “Don’t doubt my words when I say this. You aren’t useless. You aren’t bothersome. You aren’t any of those negative thoughts that others have put in your head, they’re liars, because you aren’t any of those things.”

Josh let go of Akira, noticing he was beginning to raise his voice and he got upset with himself because of it. “I’m sorry…I shouldn’t speak to you like that, it’s not your fault.” Josh rubbed his head before shaking it and speaking softer than before. “If you want to do everything I say, then do this one thing. Stop thinking of yourself like that Akira because it isn’t true.” he drifted off into a whisper.

[zajawa]

He flinched when his jaw was grabbed and he was made to look into those chestnut eyes. They seemed really upset and made him a bit scared. But then.. master said he wasn't useless and bothersome.. and somehow he believed him. When the warm hand let him go he saw Josh getting even more upset. After the whisper he sat there, not sure what to do. Then he reached and was about to touch Akira's cheek.. but the mere millimeters before his fingers touched it he withdrew his hand. 'I'm sorry for upsetting you, Master. I'll try not to think like that..'

[RedRose4]

The emotion of anger, and being upset slowly drifted away when Akira looked at Josh like that. He took a few needed breaths before his servant answered, making him feel just slightly better. “I should be upset at the people that made you think those things, not at you.” Josh spoke while grabbing the shampoo again, this time following what he said he’d do.
“Close your eyes. Please.” Josh then whispered as he took some of the soapy liquid and put it in his hand, scrubbing it softly in Akira’s hair and noticing just how beautiful the blonde colour was on him.
“It would please me to know you aren’t thinking those things. That’s all I ask, that you try.” Josh scrubbed enough for all the suds to show up in Akira’s hair, looking down at the man and making sure none got in his eyes or along his face.
As he finished up, he took some water in his hands and slowly began to pour small amounts over his head, allowing it to drip off from behind so Akira could breath.
“Instead of being so dismal and speaking like this, let’s talk about something else.” Josh poured some more, making sure to get all of the shampoo out. “How about I bring you to the greenery? I’ll carry you there and I can show the different flowers we have. There’s also a wide variety of butterflies as well.” Josh inquired while finishing up. “It would be nice to leave your room instead of being cooped up inside all day. We can go after we have something to eat.”

[zajawa]

He closed his eyes when master said so. The feeling of master's hands in his hair made him sigh with pleasure. It was really nice.. much more that he would suppose. Akira nodded once again when master told him it would please him to know that he would try not to think of himself as useless and bothersome. It would be really hard but he sure would try to do that. He tilted his head back to help a bit with rinsing his hair. When he heard master saying he would bring him to the greenery.. and all about flowers and butterflies he almost opened his eyes. At the last moments he stopped himself, remembering master didn't say he could open them. A bit of color adorned his cheeks as he was thinking about it all and Josh could tell Akira really liked the idea.

[RedRose4]

Josh took slight advantage of the situation. With Akira’s eyes closed, he looked at his servant, unable to resist the temptation to admire him as he sat in the bathtub. There were still bubbles, so of course he couldn’t see below the water, but that was probably a good thing.
Josh then looked back up, making sure everything was out of his hair before seeing Akira’s coloured cheeks, making him smile.
“I take that as a yes. Good. I’d love to show you. And you can open your eyes now.” Josh said just as he got up to grab a towel that matched the colour of Akira's bedroom, being a deep lavender colour stitched with black.
“Would you like to come out now?” Josh asked as he crouched along side him once again.

[zajawa]

As soon as master said he could open his eyes he done that. Blinking few times he looked at master and nodded to the question. First of all he didn't want to make more trouble for Josh and the second.. he really wanted to eat breakfast and see greenery and all. And master would be with him so he knew there wouldn't be anything to be afraid of. After all he rescued him two times already. But then he thought about master and his responsibilities. 'Is it okay to waste your precious time on me, Master? I don't want to trouble you anymore than I already had..'

[RedRose4]

Standing up and getting the towel ready, Josh leaned down and released the plug from the drain, allowing the water to leave first since it would be a lot easier to get Akira out. As it slowly emptied, he put the towel around the man so he wouldn’t be exposed.
The words he chose to write made Josh slightly sigh. There were a few things he needed to attend to but he wasn’t really anticipating to do them, plus he had all day.

“I can do them later. For a few more hours I’m sure I can spend time with you and the butterflies.” Josh smiled slightly as he leaned down even more, hooking his arms around and under Akira before carefully picking him up. “Let’s dry you off and get us some food.” Josh murmured while walking back to the bedroom, carefully placing Akira down and drying the man off.
As he ruffled Akira’s hair, Josh couldn’t stop from smiling just by the way he looked. His hair stuck up a bit as he dried it, looking rather adorable on the man.
“You’re way more attractive than you think.” Josh chuckled before speaking again. “Rather adorable.”