The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

With hearing that Akira forgot about everything that was still inside his head few seconds ago and touched Josh's hand under the table with the tips of his fingers. 'I know nothing about any parties.. but you will be back in no time, Master. And I.. I'll be waiting for you.. just like everyone else.' Akira blushed and looked down.

[RedRose4]

Feeling that gentle touch under the table, Josh smiled softly and nodded, understanding what he meant by that. Sighing softly, he wanted to desperately kiss the man in front of him, hug him and have a moment to just...lay beside his boyfriend, but Josh held himself back for now.
"I know...and when I come back I want you to be the first person I see." Josh smiled a little more, glancing at the time and then speaking to the others politely. "I appreciate the food, but I'd like to go to my room early...I'm not feeling the best, although Kimberly I must say thank you again."

The young woman waved her hand and smiled. "It's not a problem, you welcomed me so much...thanks, and it was a privilege to meet you Akira, you draw wonderfully." Kimberly said softly. "Harumi said she'd walk me out, so you can go ahead."
Nodding his head, Josh looked back at Akira for a moment, brushing his fingers over his hand and whispering. "You can stay a little longer if you'd like, eat desert and maybe say bye. I just think I should lay down..." Josh said, his voice holding barely any emotion so it was hard to know what he was feeling.

[zajawa]

Akira was confused with what was happening.. also he stood right away when Josh said that. He was his servant.. and boyfriend. How could he left him alone when he needed it? Akira's food was just barely touched, as well as his water when he looked at Kimberly and nodded his head with a smile. 'Your tattoo is amazing. I will treasure it.' Nodding his head to everyone he was ready to go.

[RedRose4]

Josh stood just as Akira did, looking at his boyfriend and noticing his food. He couldn't order him to stay, so he allowed him to do as he pleased, although not without speaking. "Please...bring the food with you at least. You have to eat..." Josh then smirked at the others, waving as they all waved back before taking his own water and grabbing a hold of one of Akira's hands.
On the way to his room, something was bothering Josh, nothing on his mind but more mentally. Rubbing his forehead with the back of his hand, he sighed once more and wanted to lay down, just to be with Akira...alone, not having anyone else around just him.

[zajawa]

Nodding his head he took his plate obediently and blushed strongly as master took his hand. Was that alright to go like that? Though.. Josh seemed so.. disturbed that he didn't want to bother him even with that. Taking away his hand he needed to ask. 'Master.. are you fine? You look.. very stressed. Is it because of something I have done?'

[RedRose4]

Halfway to the room, Josh finally glanced back at Akira and frowned when he asked that. Shaking his head slowly, he paused down the hallway, not caring anymore that they were out in the open, he just...needed a moment. Letting go of Akira's hand, Josh used that arm to wrap around his boyfriends body, nuzzling his head against the crook of his neck and holding him rather tight, but not enough to hurt him.
"I don't want to leave you...that's all." Josh whispered near his ear, closing his eyes tightly and sighing shakily. "I don't know why but I can't imagine..." he trailed off, just taking the moment to hold Akira for a moment.

[zajawa]

He gasped in surprise when he was pulled into the tight hug. Akira didn't resist. All closeness with other male was a nice thing. And it was master's home.. so if he wanted he could to what he wanted in here. With his free hand he touched Josh's arm and rubbed it slowly.
"Imagine what?", whispered Akira, coughing softly this time.

[RedRose4]

Josh had to pull back just slightly, hearing Akira cough and not wanting him to speak, so giving him space to write it out would be much better for him. "I can't imagine leaving you for a week. I thought about it...for days, and thought it wasn't going to be hard but now that it's coming closer it..." Josh rubbed his head and sighed once more. "It's scaring me. I don't know, maybe it would be good for me to give us space, we haven't been a day apart since I left the last time so space might be a good change. I think I'm too attached..." Josh then looked at Akira, taking his hand and kissing it. "Come...let's get to our room, you should eat, and I'll talk more, alright?" He whispered.

[zajawa]

Nodding his head when Josh asked that he pulled him towards the room. He didn't even notice that other male said 'our room'. Everything he heard made his heart almost hurt. For Josh to say he was scared.. As soon as they got inside the room he put his plate down on the nightstand and done the same for the glass Josh was holding. He probably forgot they already had taken water and milk.. and even had some chocolate in here. Pulling Josh to sit on the bed he looked at him. 'Please.. tell me more..' So far Akira knew that talking about the things that stressed them was a good thing. It helped him so many times.. so why it should be any different for other male?

[RedRose4]

Nodding his head, Josh continued to walk, starring ahead anxiously waiting to get to the room. By the time they got there, he let out a breath of relief, although as Akira took the things in his hand and put it down, Josh sat without complaining, looking into those beautiful green eyes before him and shaking his head.
Parting his lips to speak, Josh stopped and closed his eyes, sighing and biting the edge of his lip to show how anxious he really was. "You. Everything I feel is for you. I'll miss you, too much it'll probably hurt me, not physically but emotionally. I'm just not looking forward to that. The last time..." Josh opened his eyes, looking at Akira with wide eyes for a moment before furrowing his brow. "The last time I felt that...was when my mother died. I guess I'm just scared that I'll never see you again. I know it's stupid, but people I love somehow leave me....not intentionally but it still scares me." Josh said, his voice almost broken, as if what he was saying was more than just words. They expressed how he felt as well. "I'm sorry, if I'm making you upset I didn't mean for that Akira." Josh then whispered.