The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

Akira nodded his head at the question. He was fine.. and he realised he was troublesome to master since he surely wanted to do it and go to bed. The young servant looked down, a bit depressed. 'I'm sorry for being troublesome, Master.'

[RedRose4]

Seeing Akira's eyes downcast, and hearing him apologize made Josh tilt his head in confusion, not understanding why he was apologizing. "You have no reason to be sorry. And Akira…whatever is on your mind, i want you to tell me. If you don't want to, then I'm not forcing you but whatever is bothering you, tell me."

Josh bit his lower lip and looked around the room, seeing the time and smirking a bit when he glanced back at the screen. "We have lots of time." He then said beneath his breath. "No rush."

[zajawa]

Akira's eyes welled up with tears. Master was so good for him.. Rubbing his eyes he started to write with his free hand in the air. 'I feel so many things.. it's scary... and confusing.. I don't know what to think...' He wanted to be hugged by other male. When he was in those warm arms everything seemed simpler and he felt safe.

[RedRose4]

Josh nodded, seeing the emotions in Akira's eyes and needing to take a deep breath, feeling his heart clench for the person he was beginning to love more and more each day. Shifting in his seat so he could get closer to the camera, Josh made it so that it was just his upper body showing, wanting to focus only on each other right now.
"Listen to me Akira. No matter if I'm not with you physically, I am still here. I'll help you through whatever is on your mind, we work on things together." Josh cracked a vague smile and whispered a little more. "It is scary, but I'll help, as much as I can." Josh put one of his hands up and put it in front of himself, whispering softly. "Put your hand out like this…" Josh whispered.

[zajawa]

Sniffling a bit he looked up and rubbed his eye, just like a small kid would. Then he put his hand just like Josh wanted him to, wondering what he was planning to do. He thought how much he would want other male with him, on the bed and felt more tears welling up in his green eyes. Almost right away he wiped them with the back of his hand.

[RedRose4]

Seeing evidentially that Akira was crying, Josh smiled sadly and kept his hand up, seeing his boyfriend doing the same and softly whispering. "Now…repeat what I do okay?" Josh whispered, putting his hand to the screen and glancing back into Akira's eyes.
"Put your hand on the left side of your screen…and close your eyes." Josh said tenderly as his eyes closed and a small smile appeared across his lips, the expression a mixture of sadness as well as happiness joined into one.

[zajawa]

Akira nodded his head and then done what his boyfriend wanted him to. Then he closed his eyes, not sure what to expect though really liking the expression he saw on other's face. Somehow it was.. moving. Especially with the smile playing in those lips.

[RedRose4]

After a few seconds of waiting, Josh kept his eyes closed, and his palm to the screen while he whispered, keeping his voice soft and low.
"Imagine that your hand and mine, that are pressed to this warm screen together are in fact really touching. That I'm beside you, right now Akira…listening to my voice as I whisper to you." Josh smiled, the expression still stirred, although it was clear it showed more happiness in comparison to before.
"I know it's not the same as if we were together, but it'll only be a couple days before my arms wrap back around you, and I'll be with you each day, I promise. I'm only a phone call, or a text away. Please…" Josh opened his eyes, looked at the screen and sighed as he saw his boyfriend, wanting to reach out and hold him. "…understand that I'll never leave you. I'll come back to you the first chance I get." Josh promised.

[zajawa]

The young male imagined what Josh said and he smiled a soft smile. And master knowing about him liking so much to be wrapped by his arms was not really surprising since he mentioned it ealier already. Then he opened his eyes and smiled once again, though this time it had a lot of sadness. 'There are so many better people for you than me..'

[RedRose4]

Seeing Akira's eyes open, Josh didn't feel a lot better. It was evident he was still sad, and a part of him ached, his heart clenching in his chest from being too far to do anything about it. "You believe that?" Josh wondered, asking with surprise evident in his voice.
"If I had someone else Akira…I wouldn't be as happy. Elizabeth would have been a horrible wife, any other man wouldn't suffice, not to mention how could I even find someone better than you? I'm inside almost all of my life. And if I were to stumble upon another person I could wed, I would never doubt that I'd rather it be you. No matter what you say to yourself, all those bad thoughts, I'll tell you just how wrong they are." Josh explained, sincerity showing clear in his voice. "You could have someone better than me Akira, anyone can do better, but that doesn't mean your emotions for me would change. Same goes for my own towards you."