The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

'I am tired but I'm really glad to see Master happy..' Then he blushed when he heard Josh saying he cares for him. It was such a nice thing to hear.. making him feel all warm and all. Sighing softly he smiled a bit more. 'I just like tobe usefull.. and don't like Master stressed out..'

[RedRose4]

Josh sighed soflty, seeing that Akira kept calling him Master. He knew it wasn't his boyfriends fault, but they had gotten so far, and he had still called him a title instead of his true name.
"Josh. If you keep calling me Master, I'll have to kiss that sweet mouth of yours until you whisper my name." Josh chuckled softly, smiling a little until he took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

"You are always useful to me Aki. And you took away my stress completely. All I can think about is you right now." Josh opened his eyes to look at his boyfriend for a moment, knowing they were both kind of tired, it would be best to sleep soon. But a few more minutes seeing the man he loved wouldn't do any harm.

[zajawa]

Akira chuckled a bit when he heard Josh and then wrote his name few times and sent. Then he rubbed his throat. It really, seriously hurt this time. Though he wouldn't want Josh to know that so he took the hand away. 'I'm happy you're relaxed once again. I would hate to leave you while knowing you are feeling like that..'

[RedRose4]

Releasing a tired, happy chuckle, Josh shook his head and smiled as Akira wrote his name out, glad to see it. Seeing him touch his throat, it wasn't enough hot cause alarm, so Josh let it slip away for now, focusing mainly on what his boyfriend was saying to him.
"I might be stressed all week. So does this mean we do this each night?" Josh said, laughing softly and shaking his head. "I'm kidding Aki. I don't need that…all I'd wish of you is a simple or a few seconds of seeing you. That itself would help me, a lot." Josh looked at Akira for a moment and took a deep breath, his eyes flickering over to the time as he muttered. "Make sure tomorrow morning you eat a good, solid breakfast okay?" Josh asked, his gaze returning to Akira.

[zajawa]

Akira blinked and blushed a bit more when he heard part about doing it each night. That would be really embarrassing.. 'Sangre wouldn't let me leave a kitchen without eating.. And if you would want to talk to me I would gladly do that..'

[RedRose4]

"Good. He's doing his job then. And I'd love if you talked to me, whenever we both can though, there's no need to do it all of the time." Josh explained, knowing himself and Akira would have moments where they couldn't really speak, or text, which would be completely understandable.
Glancing at the clock yet again, Josh took a deep breath, his voice a bit lower than before. "We should probably rest soon…but Akira.." Josh looked into his boyfriends eyes, speaking rather slowly, as though what he said should be listened to carefully. "Thank you again." he muttered. What Akira had done was a huge step, even if the man didn't see it, Josh surely did.
"We'll talk more tomorrow. I promise." Josh whispered.

[zajawa]

Akira just simply nodded his head few times while listening to Josh but then smiled softly, shaking his head. 'There's no need to thank me..' and smiling a bit more he wrote once again 'I'll be waiting..' Somehow he felt a bit lonely when thinking of closing the laptop and going to his bed to sleep. Alone. He wasn't really surprised discovering the deep disinclination to go back but he knew it was needed to be done.

[RedRose4]

"I'll thank you anyways." Josh said tenderly, looking at Akira for a moment longer, as though he wanted time to pause for a moment. Closing his eyes, Josh took a much needed breath, opening them up and speaking clearly. "Make sure to say goodnight to Lady for me tonight…and if you ever miss me, just take one of my shirts, wear it and cuddle up into my sheets. It'll smell like me."
Josh cracked a soft smile and leaned in, his eyes shining as he did. "Kiss before bed?" he chuckled, not showing the disappointment of having to leave, but instead trying to make the situation better before departing.

[zajawa]

Oh.. Right.. Taking the shirt and sheets would help.. and no one would know about it. There was even one left on the chair.. and he could take those sheets.. Blinking at the proposition of kissing he smiled softly and leaned over to his the screen. 'Good night, Josh.' This time he made sure to call other male by his name.

[RedRose4]

The simple little fake kiss made Josh's heart lift, smiling in response and nodding softly, loving the fact that he had said his name right before they had departed as well. With another sigh, Josh looked into those beautiful green eyes once more before whispering.
"Goodnight Akira. Sweet dreams." Josh's finger lingered over the button, not wanting to click it, but after a few short seconds, and a soft smile in Akira's direction, Josh turned off the computer and leaned back into his chair, starring at a blank screen.

When he looked over at his bed, he felt himself holding no desire to sleep. It would but difficult without Akira, and knowing his boyfriend would be without him tonight would have worsened effect on Akira himself. Getting ready for the night, Josh got dressed, cleaned up a bit more thoroughly, and then laid in bed, covering himself with the blankets but not feeling very comfortable, even with the bed just as soft as his own.
It had taken almost an hour or more until Josh had been able to sleep, although the night wasn't easy, it left him rather restless, getting up every few hours and needing a drink, or just needing to walk around to calm himself before he went back into his slumber, waiting for the sun to rise.