The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

Akira gasped when master's hand gripped his wrist and he was pulled along while he stumbled. Hearing how angry Josh sounded made he really scared. When he was in his room and his hand was let free he took few steps back, massaging his wrist. When he heard master talking he just nodded, looking depressed and like he was about to cry. Akira knew he was useless and.. for few seconds he thought maybe it would be really better for him to stay on the street and die there.

[RedRose4]

Josh couldn’t help but to notice the look in Akira’s eyes, how saddened he looked, almost on the verge of tears. Taking a few more steps, he stopped moving, taking a second to think before walking towards Akira and sighing.
“I’m…sorry. I have a low tolerance.” Looking at him once more, Josh calmed his voice, although was still a bit upset. “Look at me Akira. You made a mistake, you’re weak right now, so I’ll stop pushing you to do things you might not be able to do. Instead you can work on a few other things.”

Walking towards the nearby room, his office to be exact, he pulled out a few books and returned to Akira, showing him the covers and putting them on his bed. “Read these. All three of them. They were written by the last three generations before me. Sadly I’m next to write a book…it’ll probably be horrible, but it’ll express how everything works here, and maybe it’ll be interesting. I read over them twice each so that means something…..”
Noticing he was talking non-stop, Josh took a deep breath, looking back into those green eyes and speaking yet again. “I wish I knew what you were thinking….and I shouldn’t be so harsh with you, I won’t hurt you.” Josh whispered and finally ended with a very light. “Okay? You understand?”

[zajawa]

He looked at the floor but then was surprised by other man saying his sorry. As soon as master ordered him to look at him he did that. Akira just hoped there was something he could do to please master so he wouldn't kick him out. When Josh was back young male looked at the books curiously. When master said all that and wished he would know what he was thinking he started to write in the air. 'I'm just glad you didn't kick out such a useless, ugly person back on the street. Thank you, Master. I'll try to find a way to be useful.' Looking on Akira Josh could say he was writing what he really was thinking.

[RedRose4]

Josh tore his eyes away from Akira’s eyes once he saw him writing with his hand. Instantly he felt his eyes furrow, glaring in a sense when he heard what was on his mind. “Useless? Ugly?” Josh mumbled in irritation, not being upset with Akira, but with what he had thought.
“Neither of those are true.” Looking back up, Josh shook his head, his eyes serious along with his tone of voice. “You’re useful, I’d say you just need a bit more energy and strength. And you’re far from ugly.” Josh slowly- not wanting to scare Akira- put his hand up, touching his chin and jaw before mumbling under his breath.
“You, out of all the men I’ve come across, are incredibly attractive. Never think othererwise.” Josh put his hand down instantly and walked around the room as he kept speaking. “And there is no need to thank me. I have hopes for you to be useful, in…many ways.” Josh kept his eyes on Akira, his body so frail, seeming so innocent. It was oddly alluring.

[zajawa]

When he saw master glaring at him he cringed. Did he wrote something bad? Akira heard other male being irritated but he couldn't understand why. When Josh said it wasn't true he was useless and ugly he looked at the man with hope. Then he saw master reaching to his face slowly. Thanks to that Akira didn't step back and wasn't really that scared. When he heard he was being incredibly attractive he looked at master in disbelief but after he made sure it wasn't some joke he blushed up to his ears. Nobody never said something like that to him. He was to embarrassed to look at Josh and sat on the bed instead, feeling his legs becoming rather weak. Still not looking he wrote 'I'll try, Master.'

[RedRose4]

Josh smiled a bit, Akira was rather adorable when he blushed, especially since the compliment was something he usually didn’t say to men. He was rather picky.
Going through the closet, Josh spoke up once more when he wrote that he’d try to. “That’s all I’d like. For you to try….” Turning back around, he went over to Akira and looked at him, just scanning him over before asking delicately. Being careful with his tone, especially with this question.
“This might be a very strange, and uncomfortable question but would you mind removing your shirt? I’d like to see something.” Josh wondered aloud. He’d like to see just how slim the man was, and while fully clothed it was difficult to tell. “It’s not an order, it’s something you have a choice to decide on.” he then added, not wanting to force him.

[zajawa]

Akira hesitated for few moments, knowing all to well how scared were his lower back as well as his belly.. but in the end just took his shirt off. Josh could see how pale and smooth seemed his skin. Akira look fragile and it was evident it would take some longer time for him to look like him starving at the street never happened. Though even in the state he was now Akira looked really appealing.

[RedRose4]

As Akira removed his shirt without much deliberation, Josh looked at the younger mans body. Instantly he frowned, the scars looked terrible, a negative memento of the past that he could never get rid of. Kneeling in front of Akira, Josh sat on his heels and looked up at the man, hesitantly putting his hand out once more.
“May I?” Josh asked if he could touch him. Akira might have looked incredibly skinny and weak, but there was an attraction to that aspect. The fact that he was so frail, and desperate made Josh just want to be there for him, in ways he couldn’t even imagine to say aloud.

[zajawa]

Akira looked surprised when Josh kneeled before him. When master asked the question first he was scared but then thought that he promised that he wouldn't hurt him. After few longer moments Akira nodded, though a bit nervous. Clenching his hands on his pants he waited for the touch like it alone could hurt him.

[RedRose4]

The pause itself made Josh slightly less sure he’d agree, but with that nod he was reassured he’d be allowed to. It was obvious Akira wasn’t comfortable about this, although Josh had no intentions of doing anything to harm him. Instead, he very carefully, and softly brushed his fingers along the mans stomach, frowning at the scars and shaking his head.
“Whoever did this to you…” Josh closed his eyes momentarily and looked up at Akira a second later. “I have no clue who did this to you but whoever it is… I really hope they got what they deserved, if not then karma will get them eventually.”

Josh ran his finger over Akira’s pale skin, nearly feeling his bones from the soft touch. Despite his body shape, once again he couldn’t help but to stare. “You are incredibly striking. The scars, despite seeming to make you imperfect, instead make your skin…” Josh took a moment to think of the word before whispering. “Sadly beautiful. Like a blank canvas with a few tears. I’d rather that than a canvas without anything entirely. It gives you more character in a poignant way.” Josh said without taking his eyes off of him. “Although I’d prefer you not go through pain.”
Maybe his feelings and words were because of how he had found Akira, outside like a stray kitten on the side of the road. It was as though he was a paternal figure, a caregiver for Akira, something he finally had responsibility over. Something he hadn’t had in his entire life.