The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

As master went to the bathroom he just stood there, not knowing what to do. Should he sit down? Or follow Josh? Then master was back and started to put something on the small burns, making him flinch once or twice. As he was later asked if he worked hard he tilted his head and then understood as soon as master touched his cheek that there was still the flour from ealier. 'I can have whichever, Master. Please choose which would you like better and I'll take the other one.'

[RedRose4]

Josh put the pancakes in front of himself, feeling his mouth moisten at the sight before glancing at Akira and looking back at the drinks. He really wanted to have him choose, so instead Josh chose what would sooth his throat a bit more.
“I’ll have the coffee, the smoothness of the tea should help ease your throat.” Josh said while putting a little bit of sugar into his but keeping it simple while he sipped it.
Josh then took a piece of his pancake, bit into it and hummed. “Hmm.” He hummed in satisfaction.

[zajawa]

Taking his tea Akira just nodded. Blowing on it for few moments he took few small sips. When he heard master humming in satisfaction while eating the pancakes young servant got a bit closer to his portion and took a bit of it in his mouth. He smiled softly as it proved to be really good. Still standing he focused on eating and drinking his tea.

[RedRose4]

While Josh ate his food he looked up at Akira, curious as to why he was standing up still. After another bite of his food he put his fork down and furrowed his eyebrows. “You can sit you know?” he muttered and then had to ask something that had been on his mind for a while.
“Akira…I was wondering how you feel about yourself.” Josh said while focusing all of his attention on the other man. “If you still think you’re ugly or worthless after everything that has happened. Do you still think that?” he ended softly.

[zajawa]

As master said he can sit down he had done that. After all it was his bed and it would be not right to sit down.. just like that. When he heard another question he blinked few times and gazed at Josh only to look away, being his shy self. He needed to think about the answer for few longer moments. 'I don't think I'm ugly anymore. After all I can myself in the mirror. Though I never wouldn't call myself beatiful. I would say pretty at most. And I surely am worth much less than you Master.. or Sangre.. but I'm trying to do my best..'

[RedRose4]

Josh ate a little more when Akira sat down and thought, but he paused once again when he started to write. Despite the small negatives in that reply, Josh was thankful he wasn’t having those thoughts anymore. It was actually a really nice thing to hear when Akira said he was pretty, a milestone to Josh actually.
“We’re all humans. A homeless person begging on the street is no less important than the president of a country. Why? Because we’re all human beings, we came into this world the same way and we leave it exactly the same as well.” Josh smiled faintly, trying not to push anything onto Akira though.
“But I’m really glad to hear you say that. I certainly don’t see you as ugly that’s for sure.” Josh winked.

[zajawa]

Akira blushed a bit at the wink but then he frowned a bit as he started to think about what Josh had say. 'But I'm less worth than you.. I don't really have anything.. or anyone.. Our worth must be different..' Akira looked at master, clearly not understanding and a bit disoriented.

[RedRose4]

Drinking some of his coffee, Josh shook his head before replying to what Akira had wrote. “I might be higher in power, but power doesn’t equal worth. Everyone is worthy of something, in fact I think you can become just as important in life to me.” You have great potent ional, you just have to put it to use and you’ll be the same as me. Which is why you’ll get to use that potential here, and by the way you have me and Sangre, you always will Akira.” Josh finished with a light smile. “You’re worth something now to us.”

[zajawa]

The first thought he had was that master was thinking of him too highly. He had potential? For what..? Making stupid mistakes and .. trouble other with himself. He sure had those two.. Akira knew master wouldn't be happy hearing that.. but.. how could Josh think he was so.. special? He wasn't special..

[RedRose4]

Josh took a few last bites, finishing off his food and sighing as he stood up and put the plate down, finishing his coffee in the meantime. When he looked at Akira, he knew what his thoughts consisted of, things that were most likely putting himself down, it seemed as though whenever he complimented him, Akira denied any of it.
“What would you think if I said I was stupid, ugly or pathetic?” Josh wondered softly. “Would you agree?”