The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

Akira's eyes teared up once again this day. Without thinking he grasped masters hand and looked at him warmly. 'I'm just.. no one.. Someone like me.. couldn't be married to you.. But I will be right next to you.. Always here when you need it. Is there any way to not marry Lady? She.. doesn't seem like a person.. who could bring.. prime to your house.. I'm sorry if I'm to daring in my words..'

[RedRose4]

Finally looking up at Akira, Josh was a little shaky, and seeing Akira with tears in his eyes only made him feel worse. “You can’t believe that.” Josh whispered and closed his eyes yet again. “I surely believe that I deserve someone as amazing as you compared to someone as pitiful as her. And I’m not sure if I can stop the marriage…I’ll have to talk to Elizabeth face to face. She’s coming over tomorrow.” Josh said with a bit of hate in his voice now.
“I have to try to stop it. I cant spend my whole life with someone like her. I’d go insane…I’d hate my life.” Josh looked into Akira’s eyes, barely noticing his own maroon eyes glistening with tears that didn’t dare fall. “I’ll try.” he whispered finally.

[zajawa]

Akira sniffled and when he saw masters tears he just wrapped his arms around his neck. His heart was beating as crazy but he just.. wanted to bring some relief to master. He even made Josh fall on his back as he shivered.
"Master.."
Josh could hear it as well as Akira. His eyes grew wide. What..? He..? And he had such a.. soft.. warm voice? No way.. Impossible..

[RedRose4]

Akira’s arms wrapped around him calmed Josh just slightly, and as he fell onto his back along his comfortable bed, his arms never left Akira’s body.
Josh’s closed eyes then opened. A single tear managing to slip down his cheek, his breathing stopping and his body freezing. Was he hallucinating? The sound of that voice made Josh’s heart warm. So gentle, soft, tender. It was perfect coming from the man that he had his arms wrapped around.
It was Akira’s voice and it was faultless.
Instead of saying anything, Josh moved just a little so that he could look into Akira’s eyes, unable to think of anything or anyone other than the person right in front of him. Closing his eyes yet again, Josh leaned up to press his lips to Akira’s, wrapping his arms around his waist tightly and feeling his heart warm from the incredible moment.

[zajawa]

As they eyes met and he saw how sad was his master he tried to speak once more.
"Master.. don't be sad", he whispered. "I'm here.. for you.. I won't leave you.. And you wouldn't be lonely.. and scared. Master.."
His throat was hurting as he was speaking but he knew he needed to say that. He needed to let master know he would be here for him. Akira knew he was no one but.. he would be here.. to hug master and to not leave him alone.

[RedRose4]

The simple sound of Akira’s voice made Josh happy. A real smile appeared on his face, he looked bewildered but….ecstatic, as if what he said earlier never happened. Despite still being upset about what was said before, he couldn’t think about that right now, it was literally impossible for him to.

“Akira…” Josh smiled a little more, his eyes seeming to tear up again but this time it wasn’t because he was upset, it was the complete opposite. Placing one of his hands up to Akira’s throat, Josh starred at him for a moment before speaking yet again.
“I believe you. I’m just….” Josh smiled yet again and rubbed his hand up his back. “I’m just so happy I can hear your voice. Just don’t strain yourself, please.” Josh muttered, knowing it must have been so long for his vocal chords to be of use, talking would probably hurt if he pushed himself.

[zajawa]

Akira smiled and nodded. 'It hurts to talk. Just.. don't be sad Master.. There's no way you could marry something.. someone like me.. even if I was a girl.. and you liked girls.. but I would be here for you..'
"Please.. don't cry..", he whispered once again.

[RedRose4]

Josh looked at Akira’s hand when he wrote, shaking his head when he referred to himself as ‘something’ and spoke of being there for him. It then hit Josh that he didn’t want Elizabeth…what if he planned a wedding, but not with her, instead for the man in front of him.
It was probably idiotic. How could Josh make that happen? Even worse what if Akira didn’t feel the same way? Others would probably disagree, his castle and he himself would nearly be shunned by others but Josh barely cared.
Once Akira spoke with such a soft voice yet again, Josh’s reddish brown eyes looked into his green ones and he smiled once more. “They’re happy tears Akira. You have…no idea how glad I am to hear your voice, it’s beautiful. But please, don’t talk until your throat feels better. Maybe some tea would help.” he wondered with furrowed eyebrows and keeping his fingers rubbing along Akira’s throat.

[zajawa]

He gasped as master rubbed his throat as his neck was really sensitive. And then he rubbed Josh's eyes with his soft, cold finger. Even if those tears were happy.. he didn't like to see them. He wanted those eyes smiling and warm.. not filled with tears. Resting his head on masters chest he sighed. After running and so many emotions he was really tired. He still was a bit weak after all.

[RedRose4]

Feeling Akira’s finger brush up against his cheek, Josh smiled very softly yet again. It was bittersweet when Akira stopped speaking, knowing it made him feel better but he missed it, wanting to hear him talk even if the words coming from his mouth had no real meaning.
Once he felt Akira’s head on his chest, Josh leaned his head back against his pillow and closed his eyes. Placing his hand in the younger mans hair, Josh smiled very lightly and then whispered lastly.
“Please, call me Josh from now on.” He whispered and kissed Akira’s head. “You should sleep. I’ll sleep with you, it’s been a long day.” Josh muttered while keeping his eyes gently closed.