The way you love me [private for me and MsJacobL]

[zajawa]

When he was turned around he stumbled a bit. Looking shyly at Josh he he nodded though he flinched when he felt something brushing up against his member. Akira looked down and saw how hard master got. Did he felt pleasure too as he.. Biting his lower lip he glanced at Josh, clearly ashamed but at the same time a bit curious. Looking down again he rubbed masters cock head.. and then stopped not sure what Josh wanted to do now. Was it okay to touch..? Or maybe he planned something else?

[RedRose4]

Even after Akira stumbled slightly, Josh held him for a few more seconds before slowly drawing his hands back. Noticing the others eyes on his obviously hard cock, Josh allowed him to look although once he felt the soft touch of his hand, Josh tensed up and groaned very lowly.
Once Akira’s hand withdrew, Josh grasped onto it and looked into his green eyes. “You can touch me as much as you’d like. Although I’d like to try something with you…or…maybe not.” Josh sighed and shook his head. He looked torn for a moment. He couldn’t have sex with Akira….he couldn’t be ready for it.
Thinking of a possible other option, Josh then considered maybe he should ask instead of guess on his own. Looking back into Akira’s eyes, Josh touched his cheek and muttered. “Can I ask you something? I might sound scary but I’m not forcing it, just asking.” he assured.

[zajawa]

Akira flinched a bit when Josh grasped his hand and looked a bit startled, wandering if he did something wrong. He then tilted his head as master sounded really unsure as the maroon eyes looked away. Leaning to the touch as Josh touched his cheek he then hesitated. What could sound scary? He slowly nodded.. After all it was only a question and master allowed him to say no.. so it wouldn't be bad trying to hear it.. And also.. Akira was a bit curious what could it be..

[RedRose4]

As Akira leaned into his touch and nodded his head, Josh took a deep breath and grasped his hand softer, running his fingers over the back of his knuckles and using his other hand to very gently run over the fading bruise on his ribs.
“I wanted to know if someday, I’m not saying right now but someday you’ll let me…” Josh stopped yet again, having to just think of the way to say it before he did. “That we can share each other, to give one another to the other. I’d call it making love, but it’s easier just to say….would you ever consider that one day you’d have sex with me Akira?” Josh finally just said it while his eyes stayed in contact with Akira’s, trying to read the reaction on his face.

[zajawa]

Hearing that Akira didn't move for few longer moments, thinking. Having a finger there felt strange.. but oddly good. Did that mean having masters cock would feel even better? 'Is it scary? Does it hurt?' Pausing he then added, a bit hessistant due to how embarrassing it felt to ask about it. 'Would it.. feel better than a finger.. or..' Akira didn't finish as he looked down, really ashamed with this all.

[RedRose4]

Josh was shocked. Akira was asking him questions instead of being afraid or scared of even speaking of it. Looking at him for a few seconds longer, Josh spoke while his hands stayed on his body but were now unmoving.
“You might feel a little strange at first….and I’d make sure you aren’t in any pain.” Josh brought his hand back up to Akira’s cheek, brushing his fingers over his soft skin. “It might hurt a little, but if I’m careful and I prepare you it won’t be. Plus I’m sure it would feel better than a finger.” Josh had a shadow of a smile on his face while keeping his eyes locked with Akira’s.
“Would it be strange to admit I’m a little nervous about it too?” Josh smiled even more and shook his head while looking down at his hand. “Living in a place like this and keeping my sexual orientation a secret made it impossible for me to have sex either. So I’m a virgin too.” Josh whispered inadequately.

[zajawa]

Akira looked at Josh as he started to speak and brushed his pink cheek. So it would feel better than the finger.. He gulped a bit and then.. his eyes widen at masters confession. 'But you are so good in all those sexual things, Master.. And know everything.. How is that possible.' It surprised him so much that he forgot about his ealier embarrassement, for now focused only on the news he heard few seconds ealier.

[RedRose4]

Pausing his finger along Akira’s skin and looking away in embarrassment, Josh let out a short breath before answering his question. “A lot of erotica.” Unable to resist himself, Josh smiled slightly and looked back into Akira’s eyes.
“Plus I do have some modern technology. There’s a laptop in my dresser located in my office, I use it to research and before you came….a few other things.” Josh mumbled under his breath before parting his lips and speaking yet again. “I’ve kissed plenty of times before, but not much more then that.” he then said with a scowl since of course it was Elizabeth he had kissed, reluctantly of course.

[zajawa]

Akira tilted his head. 'What is erotica? What is.. laptop? How can one do research with it? I don't understand, Master..' Then he saw master scowl and got even more confused. Akira knew there was a lot more things that he even didn't know existed. Good thing Josh found him then.. he really wouldn't be able to life by his own because of all the things he didn't know.

[RedRose4]

Josh smiled again when Akira asked that, knowing that he probably never heard of it so it wasn’t his fault for asking. “Erotica is a kind of book. Like the ones you read but it has sex in it…I kept it away from you in the beginning but maybe reading a few would be good for you to learn….”
Josh then wondered how he’d explain a laptop. Sighing he scratched his head and tried ignoring his boner that was resting between them. “A laptop…is electronic, runs off of power. It has a screen that shows images and videos, it’s rather amazing. How about I show you it later?” Josh offered since he knew Akira would probably be amazed by it.